DaniiCute0

hi ! i am currently home for the holidays and as some of you may know , i have a complicated history with family surrounding this account/interest of mine . this means that i cannot currently work as much as i’d like to on art without making excuses to avoid suspicion (the christmas comic/curiouscat drawings were done/posted under the guise of ‘showering’ or ‘visiting friends’ so i could get them done , and posting is done as ‘bathroom breaks’) . i will leave soon , but i do not have my own means of transportation so i have to rely on another family member and basically will leave whenever he does , but soon !! i am hispanic , and my family takes tradition/superstition very seriously , so i cannot leave before i eat grapes and hug every single person in my abuela’s contact list on new years otherwise i am bound to bad luck for a gazillion years (no i am not kidding i fr do have to wait until i eat grapes and hug , yes i wish i was kidding .) i will still be doing my best to draw through those excuses until then though !! i appreciate your patience and support of my art , and wanted to remind you of this fact , as well as the fact that i have other personal commitments that make it so i cannot be drawing 24/7 , and those irl things combined with how long completing fully rendered works (especially comics , and PARTICULARLY lo-gain as it is a different style than i typically do + the brushes operate differently than coloring—it takes more time because it is more difficult) takes me (along with needed breaks to avoid hand/eye strain) means that i might not always be able to complete things in a timely manner for you . i apologize for the wait times , but i am only one person doing this for fun— not a job . most of you are very understanding of this , and again , i thank you for that !! i really do appreciate it ! and i get that some of you are very passionate about this stuff and im glad that you enjoy my work , but please tone it down on dming me/sending me notes/etc constantly demanding sequels/next pages/etc of things , especially lo-gain . again , i am so genuinely grateful and happy that so many people enjoy my art , i really am , but it is honestly a bit frustrating and disheartening to open DA and see note after note , message after message , of people pushing for more lo-gain , more this more that and the next . its okay to be frustrated with me that im taking so long , i apologize that i cannot post more , but i am trying my best . i cannot (and honestly , should not , for sanity/health’s sake) draw/post every day . i take long , i know that . i am trying . i was proud of myself for being able to get some drawings out + a comic while being unable to draw as much as id like to , and so it was a little saddening on my part when people just waved what i was able to produce away and instead tell me they want something else when i’ve already stated repeatedly that it will be done soon right when i get the chance , or having to retell the same people over and over again privately that same thing— im sorry for the wait , but it will be done as soon as i possibly can . i get that not everything is for everyone and some people really like other things or really want to see something they’ve been waiting for for a while , i get that . i appreciate the eagerness . but please , just bear with me . i am very sorry that i am making you wait so long , i am . but im working with what i have , and im not delaying myself on purpose . explanations are not excuses , so rest assured that i am not crying victim when i say that i have ADHD-induced rejection sensitivity/executive dysfunction (+ other ADHD symptoms like time blindness/difficulty focusing/etc) . this means that i perceive things as much bigger deals than they are , particularly feelings of failure/rejection . so logically i know that people aren’t berating me (not a great word but im blanking on a better one) , but i internalize it like that very bad and end up taking it personally . basically , im a little baby bitch who is sensitive , and that makes my executive dysfunction horrible . i get to a point that im like “yknow what , nothing i do will be good enough anyway , so theres no point” and then its a battle to kick myself in the ass and get to work . i am trying my best , but the multiple daily messages and comments and notes and everything is making it very difficult to motivate myself . i do this because i want to . i make things because i like it and its fun , and i do my best to make things that i think that people will enjoy . i try to take these things into consideration , and i apologize if i am wrong sometimes . but again , i do it for fun . so when im getting a bunch of messages everyday that my waa waaa baby brain basically reads as “yeah yeah i saw your little drawing or whatever , but i want xyz , you’re doing it all wrong” it is very draining . i started making lo-gain because i loved the story , but now im beginning to resent it and not wanting to continue because every time i think about it i get frustrated and anxious and unmotivated . i do not want to have negative feelings toward my art/DA . the whole reason i started posting on DA was to make myself feel better about my art , and now im starting to regress to where i was before—hating what i make , not wanting to draw , and severe insecurity in sharing it . this is not meant as a slight toward any of you , i am just letting you know where i am right now . as a rule of thumb , if i have a comic that i have not explicitly mentioned is over or have mentioned that i will continue once i can (eg. lo-gain) , assume that i am working on it behind the scenes . if you’d like to see more content of a certain thing (eg. a specific kink/character) thats fine ! its okay to send me a quick message or leave a comment about it , thats totally cool and i appreciate getting feedback like that . but please , just leave it to one . i promise , if you’ve sent one , i’ve probably seen it . i do my best to respond , but sometimes i cant , but i promise i’ve seen it . i do check comments/notes/dms , i do . again , i do have ADHD , though , so sometimes i just forget to reply or follow up — thats my bad , and i apologize for that , but i’ve seen it ,, i most likely just incorrectly assumed that i responded and went on my merry way . lo-gain is not over , i do have plans for it , i am doing my best , please just bear with me for a while . i am sorry that i have not been meeting expectations , and i am sorry that i have been making you wait . i am doing my best . thank you for supporting my art , and for your time . i promise it does not go unappreciated . have a great rest of your year ! h xx